how happy can i be nowadys .. haiz ..

sometime i keep thining back .. i got happy time

but i am not satisfied . cause i keep thinking abt being happy

the more i think the more i wan t it more .. then i am back to square 1 again

i am keeping think about the past .. thinking about in the spring

think about alot alot of thing

there is alot of thing i cannot do now in the new Environment

i am not myself

i feel bad bad bad . .