Tuesday, April 29, 2008

how happy can i be nowadys .. haiz ..
sometime i keep thining back .. i got happy time
but i am not satisfied . cause i keep thinking abt being happy
the more i think the more i wan t it more .. then i am back to square 1 again
i am keeping think about the past .. thinking about in the spring
think about alot alot of thing
there is alot of thing i cannot do now in the new Environment
i am not myself
i feel bad bad bad . .

Saturday, April 26, 2008

hey hye .. back agian
just came back form alumni
haha

acutally got something to blog abt
but i suddenly forgot
so nvm lo
will blog if i rmb again
haha

Friday, April 25, 2008

i think god really treat me very good =]
at first he let me know that he actually know how i feel and care about it .
next he let me see alot of smily face in the morning while i am walking to the station
next alot of people say HELLO to me today
next, there a friend who message me.. god make me feel that .. my friend still care about me =]
the last thing is .. i get to wish JIAMEI happy birthday Personally
hee (love her lots)


although alot of things change .. the way i act i talk .. the way i think ..
when i start to think that is hard to meet something good again
but something happen and make me happy again=] .. thank you



WEDNESDAY !!!
i am going to blog about that day ..
meet baby in the morning as usual
haha .. then after that went to Bedok to wait for karrie
but then i just RMB that my class start at 9.30 .. and i am very early
and i know karrie will confirm be late .. so i go karrie house 1st


when i reach there she was still sleeping .. (9am)
after that she go back to sleep again
then i decided to wake her up at 9.30 ..
at the mean time i can take a nap also
but who knows when i wake up is already 10.30 lo
lol
so i decided to wake her up later and go to school after the luch break
lol ..
when to school on the day .. and its really boring la


actually got alot of thing i don like .. but i donno how to say
what i think and other people think is diff .. i have to accept that
and try nt to let it affect my mood

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

i am really very happy when i am with him
i see the different him
the another side of him which only i can see and feel
and i really feel very very happy when i see and hear that
he is just more then what i expected

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


YEah .yeah.. finiish most of my project le .. so happy happy

haha .. ican;t stand people who don understand other position

who don care wat will happen to the other parties when he make that decision

and just do what he think will benefit him

that super selfish .. maybe some of u know who am i refering too
okok
enough!!

i think last last sunday when to international seafood to celebrate my grandfather birthday

hah a

the food there were nice.. really .. and we take some phtot with joan camera .. haha (my cousin)






Monday, April 21, 2008

与十二星座拍拖新解
*白羊座~你要跟这种动物谈恋爱的话,你可要学的可多了……
  
一来要知道自己是不是够吸引他,否则还是再说吧!
  二来要知道自己像不像保姆跟老师,做不到!?那你还是放弃吧。
 三来每天训练自己的心脏要够力,否则随时来的打击,你可会受不了喔……
  


*金牛座~温和,用心,忠诚,实在。
  
兼具这四大考验,你要去喜欢一头牛的话,倒是比较容易点。
  啥!?你温和也用心又够忠诚老实说就是实在....怎么会不喜欢你呢!
 忘了告诉你,那是他的标准才算啊,你自己说得哪算啊!?
  

*双子座~当他告诉你,他爱你……你就相信吧!
  
可能明天他就会告诉你,他又不爱你了……所以别乐得太快!
  你以为他花心,其实没那么坏啦,他只觉得不那么爱你了……所以啰~  
你以为他喜欢伤害人吗!?错……他只是对你没了爱的感觉,所以趁早结束罢了。
  

*巨蟹座~温柔爱家内向害羞体贴善良……这就是巨蟹的形容词吗?
  
唉……看来巨蟹给人的错觉还真夸张啊!?你好好研究吧。
  在你真正未得到一只小螃蟹对你的用心时,你还是别把这些形容词用在他身上。
  当巨蟹宝宝真正爱人时,这些特点他才会展现出来……否则蟹蟹还是花蟹蟹唷~
  

*狮子座~你爱上了狮子吗?恭喜你……开始享受一趟高潮迭起的剧情吧。
  如果狮子座的人喜欢你,那么你家将会出现很多他送给你的东西证明你是他的。
  如果你喜欢上狮子座的人,那么慢慢用你的感动去感动他吧,这是很有效的喔……
  什么!?没用……别这么想,他只是自尊作祟,不想被你太容易追上罢了。
  

*处女座~你以为他对你是忠诚专一,先掂掂一下吧……
  处女座的情人除非你能通过他给你的每份心理测验,还有忠诚专一的考题……
  否则最爱的头衔可不是那么容易拿到手,如果拿到手的话,嘿嘿……
  你继续再拿两项持家跟忠贞的金牌,那么……处女座就非你莫嫁非你莫娶了。
  

*天秤座~基本上这是一个很爱美又常会发点花痴以及爱的学分总是低空飞过的星座。
  你以为花心总是天秤座的吗!?嘿嘿……只是你自己不够了解吧~
  当一个秤子决定爱你的同时,你可以相信他给你的最美最爱是绝对的。
  当一个秤子不爱你的同时,这是常有的,只是他又被吸引到其它地方去了……
  

*天蝎座~如果你只是玩玩的话,你还是省点力气,免得被玩得是你唷!
  如果你是真心的话,你可以多下点心,因为你会收到这辈子最深刻的回忆。
  如果你又想玩又有真心的话,劝你自己要明白,当真心不到满分的程度。
  你被蝎子螫的机率绝对是百分百,绝对是痛到你会大喊,天蝎座的人很投入滴……
  

*射手座~又是个被世人唾弃辱骂成“花心萝卜“的可怜星座~
  他没那么坏,只是朋友多的不太象话,只是朋友可能都带有感情的色彩……
  他是专情的,只是你得去学着,他也会爱朋友,他也会爱陌生人……
  他更有可能爱他以前所爱的人,你可要学着“习惯“啊~
  


*摩羯座~通常年轻的摩羯,是那种会玩会疯会闹又花心的人……这是大部分。
  别把对爱很执着的星座跟摩羯连成一条线,那是错误的。
  他们对爱迟钝,可是要专情,除非你有绝对的吸引力...要不然别想~
  他们对爱挑剔,所以寻寻觅觅中,才发现伤害别人已经成为历史。
  

*水瓶座~就像个“风筝”飞了很远,看不见了……等到哪时风停了,他还是回来了~
  他对爱情保持着友谊的态度,不喜欢被黏,却又希望被管。
  他就像个爱放风筝的孩子,要人照顾要人操心,可是...当你发现风筝飞远了!?
  别以为他对爱情是这个样子,其实风筝的线还是系在你的手心里啊……
  

*双鱼座~就是两条鱼的意思,也就是你准备跟两个人谈恋爱吧。
  可能温柔对待,可能凶残恶霸,可能贤淑可爱,可能暴力相向……都有吧。
  看你怎么去应付同时有极端的个性以及不稳定的情绪!?
  既然爱你就是爱你,别跟他要求多一点爱,那已经是他给的最多了~!

Saturday, April 19, 2008

i have done some reflection on myself
i think this year i was rather slack abit
i think i will try to work harder and do something to myself
will nt skip school so often anymore ..

and will try not to be late anymore ..

haiz .. feel bad
but i know if i work harder i will get better

=]

Friday, April 18, 2008

你问在我心中是否还苦恼
那次受伤否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照
我一切都好
一个人不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)
那次流过的泪
让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要
是一种对照
能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时
候我就算已经准备好
放手去爱
海阔天高

Thursday, April 17, 2008

ok ..
i donno wat happen to this computer again ..
is like .. its going to say bye bye to me anytime la damn idiot


school work school work and school work !!!!!
haiz ..
-myself-
-current affair-
-roleplay-
-bazzar-


i feel so shity now la ..
haiz


lets talk abt my dream .

i dream that i found a 100 bucks on the floor ..
its drop from a men pocket
when i pick it up and ran after him to give him back
he DIAO me lo ..
stupid right .. then i shout at him .. ur money la
then he walk away ..
then i take away the money lo

how i wish this will really happen la .. hah a

SHOULD I GET A CCA !????
i feel that i am getting more and more lazy
donno y ?
how ?
HELP !!

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

WA .. today is an angry day la
super angry for the whole day can ..
Super ass hole ..

Saturday, April 12, 2008

tml 14/4/08
-start of term 2-
-2nd month-


Tml start school le.. this holiday is just so wasted la
i didn't really go anywhere .. cause lazy and don wan to spend money at the same time
i should go look for some part time job la ..
haiz.. okok .. i know wat u guys going to say esp sharlyn
haha
WASTED !!!!~~~
Going to wake up earlier again .. hope that timetable will change
i wan a better timetable la
haha .. i don really like this time table
cause got 2 days full day ..
Sian .. haha .. after start school we got role play again
but i think should be ok ba .. i think this one should be more relax ba
Yeah !! 2nd month le ..
izzit fast or slow ?
haha
happy can le la .. right baby ?!hee =D

Friday, April 11, 2008

Learn new thing today
people may change we are going to learn to adpat to the changes
go and get close to that person ..
try to understand that person all over again
then try to help her to bring her to the path which is right


sometime maybe u just thnk that u should do wat u like ,,,
but sometime letting people doing wat they like will make u happy too
cause u done something good .. am i right?


i say i am brave .. but maybe last ba
i donno whether am i like that now
maybe yes maybe not .. cause things haven happen yet
but i guess .. i still can do it
cause i know i am eileen .. and eileen is like that =] 勇敢!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

i think i am a Brave girl men!!
What make me say tat ..
haha just Rmb sec 1 because of donno wat thing i have to go for operation

i was like .. thinking abt the whole process
haha
then i think i am a brave girl lo
haha


at that time i am not afraid at all
i am just thinking abt my exam
cause that is the year i work very hard and try to aim to go to NA
but end up also cannot take the exam as they say they will use my mid year result
haizz.. poor thing right ='(

that was the only thing i am worried about ..
the rest .. i like didn't really think abt it ..
i am not afraid when my father keep telling me ..
maybe u need to have an operation ..
and he keep telling me la ..
but i feel nth .. i think he is feel more nervous and scared then me lo .. hah a

After one night of waiting in the hospital.
finally the next day in the morning . they were like sending me to a big room .. with small room inside
the bring me here and there .. they inject me then they make me smell something sweet
then they make me count 1 to 10 then i fall asleep
haha ..
after that when i wake up i was like ouch ! .. then all the nurses turn to me ( there were 3 or 4 )
haha.. they were like izzit very painful
i give a nob .. they they inject me again (painkiller)
i can't even turn around on that bed .hah a.. cause verypainful
TELL U WHAT ...I DIDN't REALLY CRY OK
i just keep talking to myself (donno wat la).and my eye felt abit wet (but is not cry .. )
haha
then after they push to my ward .. then carry me on to my bed ..
that part really scary .. i donno how to decsride how they carryme .. but i really scared that i will fall or wat lo
when i am on the bed they make me turn here and there .. u know how pain izzit or not
haiz

at first my mum were there ..she like looking at me
then after that my dad came
WA .. when he tell me that the school don allow me to take the exam ..
that is the only time i start crying la
my mother like nvm nvm ..
i cry for a few min .. but everyone in the ward like looking at me
i feel so MALU after that .. haha

that night i have to stay in the hospital alone
haha.. my parent went back home
then left me alone there at night
looking at all those bear bear windows .. and cloth.
and 1 nurse to take care of the whole ward .. it take years for her to come to me
cause i need to pee...
even going to the toilet is a difficulty ..
then the next day .. parent come to me with a bowl of PORRIDGE !!
i don like porridge since when K2 .. when i have my chicken poks . haha
imagine u where to eat porridge for donno how many day
that one really killing me la .. hah athen when home ..
nth much at home . the only thing is that grandma taking care of me ( when she is still strong)
and my brother laughing at me
my sister resting with me ( she had an operation 2 weeks before me also )
haha cool right
hah a




THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS .. I THINK I AM A BRAVE GIRL LO ..
THE NURSE DID PRAISE ME ALSO .. HAH A...SEE .
I AM STRONG .. HAH A.. AND WILL CONTINUE TO BE LIKE THAT =]
hey hey .. back here again ..
haha .. meet him after his class


then after that his mum call him
then he have to go home .. then we go home lo
maybe cannot talk to him today le ..
he going to study and stay at home today=[
but at least he study.. haha

stupid my bill not here yet la ..
den must control my sms .. then cannot message alot of people le =[
this is the 1st time i really try to control and try not to over use lo
so xin ku .=(haiz


amd ya good luck to one of my friend tml
haha .. she/he going to sing tml .. in chinese men
and she/he is somebody who ALWAYS speak english
although she/he say that her/his chinese already can get A1 (CRAP)
but i don think she still can make it for that damn stupid song la (the beginning is to difficult la)
wan to help her also cannot .. haha
JIAYOU ARH !! FRIEND!!!
Another thing .. that person don sing infront of people one lo .. idiot .!!

sometime bad thing happen
is not really that bad at all
cause its is there to give us warning
and let us learn ..
or not how we know wat is good ..
amiright .. so rmb every bit of it .. u will find them helpful =]

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Was with him for 3 hours today
we went to the 25 buliding
i like that place . i just like the feeling when i went up that and look at things when i am up there =]
i donno when i start to like to look at clouds ..=]

but finally we found somewhere better then the 25 buliding ..
haha .. we wrote something on the wall ..
he wrote on one side and i wrote on the another side
and wat we think and wat we write are link.

*HAPPY!* ... haha ... maybe cause we really hope that it will turn out that way ba

but will it really turn out that way ??

althought i am not quite happy for the past 2 days
but at least he is there for me ..

sometime i really got alot of things to say
but i donno how to say out .. i donno how to tell anyone
but i tink as long as i am happy with the person i am hanging around with
that enough le ba ..=] i don need to tell them how i feel .. or watever ..
as long as i am happy can le ..=]


'keep the smile on ur face"


maybe this is not a correct way . but at least i tink is the best way
at least i won't hurt u again .. and u won't make me cry again
am i right ?
whatelse can we do ?
u wan to protect urself .. then i will do this .
hope that u can find someone who can make u happy ma =]

Monday, April 7, 2008

Enduring enduring and enduring ..
how much can we do ?
how can i believe in wat i don wan to believe ?
i donno whether is truth or wat ?

What if they just leave me ?
what if they can't take it anymore ?
then wat am i suppose to do ?
am i an idiot or wat ?

QUESTION MARK QUESTION MARK AND QUESTION MARK ????


so when can i get the answer ?so how am i going to find the answer ?

Sunday, April 6, 2008

i wan to contiune ..but how .. how am i suppose to ..
do u guys understand ..
i have my own reason ..



what am i suppose to do .. i am proud ?
i don know what u mean ?
u think i am happy .. then fine
do u know wat am i thinking before u say that ?

i say i don wan to care ..
but how abt u ?
u really don wan to care .?
i did put in effort before .. can u see ?
how many time must we repeat this again and again?
and i don understand wat u wan ?
i just can't give wat u want?

Saturday, April 5, 2008



主题B: 难以忘记情伤的星座?Voting ends Friday, 28th Mar ,2359hrs!



当昔日的甜蜜爱情成为过往,当曾经是自己生命一部分的人要成为最熟悉的陌生人,你会痛苦、绝望、不甘,还是勇敢面对,潇洒地转身呢? s


TOP1处女座
处女座一旦受到爱情的伤害是最难恢复、治愈时间最久的。你如此谨慎挑选的对象,如此小心翼翼维护的感情,可是最终的结果却是以分手告终,怎能甘心? 但是为了顾及工作的完美,却又无法任自己的情绪尽情释放发泄,于是伤口在心里慢慢发炎,总是隐隐作痛,往往有好长一段时间,会带着无心的躯壳,如同行尸走 肉般的生活。

情伤疗法:远离一切可以勾起回忆的地方或情景,搬家或离开这座城市,来个眼不见为净,全新的环境可以让自己有全新的开始。


TOP2天秤座
天秤座一投入感情便会有极强烈的爱意,当忠贞不渝的爱情憧憬变为泡影时,你将无法忘记这惨痛经历。‘一朝被蛇咬,十年怕草绳’,那道伤痕会影响往后 的恋爱态度,不再轻信异性的承诺,不再轻信爱情的永恒。即便后来接受新的恋情,心底的阴影也会长年挥之不去,有时候在不经意间触景生情,在心底黯然神伤。

情伤疗法:给自己放段长假去远行,到大自然里,放松放松心情,别让悲伤压得自己喘不过气。


TOP3巨蟹座
巨蟹座一失恋会顷刻间感觉一无所有。时间、金钱、精力都随着爱情的结束而付诸东流,甚至连朋友也因自己之前对友情的忽略,而冷漠以对。因为不想让家 人担心,只好一个人背负所有的痛。你依然笑着,可是心却牢牢关上了门。为成全家人的期望,你会接受他人的爱,但却永远不会主动付出爱。

情伤疗法:把思念和悲伤尽情爆发、释放,肆意碰触那些可勾起回忆、触动情绪的物品或情境,终有一天会伤无可伤,泪无可流。倦了、累了,便也麻木了。


TOP4天蝎座
天蝎座面对失恋打击时,不会愿意向别人诉苦,却会把埋藏在心底深处的创伤报复到自己身上。会用工作,学习来逃避一切,甚至会用嘲讽冷淡的态度来对待新的爱情。那样刻骨铭心的伤痛,极易让你心理发生扭曲,越陷越深,愈演愈烈,最终走向无法自拔的地步。

情伤疗法:学着用另一个角度来看待爱情吧。其实所有的关系,只是让我们更了解自己,并从生命中获得学习跟成长。痛苦使人成长,当你真正觉醒爱的真谛以后,就能不再为情所伤。


Top 5牡羊座
热情开朗的牡羊表面上与情伤无缘,但当一片执着信任惨遭对方背叛后,会长时间陷入悲痛和愤恨之中。你无法接受背叛,更加无法接受被别人打败。即使一 切不能挽回,也会处处想胜过竞争者,以此来挑衅对方的选择有多差劲。这种强烈的求胜企图心,只会让你更加难以走出被击败的阴影。

情伤疗法:感情本身出了状况,第三者只是一块试金石,你应该庆幸及早分手,让你拥有一段珍贵的感情财富,并拥有下一个,寻找更适合自己伴侣的机会。祝福对方,将目标转向下一段感情旅程。


TOP6金牛座
当恋人离开金牛时,带走的不仅是你的爱,还有多年的记忆和未来的计划。生根在你内心的固执,怎会让你轻易改变曾经和对方的习惯,重新拟订并适应没有那人存在的人生?可是若不改变,代价就会是伴着那些记忆和习惯无数次地重复揭开旧伤。

情伤疗法:固执是金牛最大的致命伤。明明不合适,也知道走到尽头了,却无论如何都不肯放手。放下执着的信念,未来的路,其实无限宽广。


TOP7狮子座
狮子座最不能容忍的就是自己被甩,爱情丢掉了,可是面子更丢不起。你的骄傲不允许自己表现出没了对方就活不下去的惨状,自尊心也在提醒你不要忘记那个甩掉你,践踏你尊严的人,即便多年之后重遇,你仍会怀恨在心,不会给对方好脸色。

情伤疗法:
骄傲的狮子需要了解的是,爱情跟对错无关,跟失败也无关。并不是争到了就是胜利。重点在于,透过爱情,你更了解对自我的评价是什么。当你真正爱自己时,情伤根本不算什么!
三个月之内可走出情伤的星座:



魔羯座
魔羯座对于破灭的感情存有哀愁是在所难免,但现实的他们了解,即使没有爱情,还是要继续生活。所以他们会加倍努力工作,从工作中平衡感情受到的伤害。他们相信,未来的生活仍要继续,成功的喜悦会掩盖伤痛,唯一能做的,仅仅是在往后的日子里,一个人稍稍思念对方。


双鱼座
双鱼座恋爱失败后会有短暂的伤心失意,不断的自伤、自怜、自怨,完全沉沦在伤感的深渊中。但只要看到迷人的异性,就可以忘掉一切,重新又投入新的恋爱中。
双子座
当爱情不再有激情时,双子会认为分手是无奈却又是理智的选择,虽然会伤感一阵子,可是繁忙的工作、愉快的社交,能很快驱散他们的烦恼。


射手座
当射手座遭遇爱情的背叛时,愤怒会如火山爆发般激烈。当他们彻底发泄后,会立刻寻找新的恋情,觉得这样才对得起自己。甚至还能反过来祝福曾经的恋人。


水瓶座
水瓶座遇到情变是最容易走出情伤的人,理智的他们,会认为失恋不过是人生的一部分。理性客观的他们,会认为如果自己站在对方的立场,可能也会这么做。如果分手的时后没有彼此伤害,甚至还能和对方保持朋友关系

Tuesday, April 1, 2008














yeah .. back again .. haha .. last sunday when to help jiamei mother in the baby show .. haha ..jia mei fongmay and me were doing the admin staff .. like weighting the baby . record down their weight and stuff .. haha..FUN !! then lala and Zameer were the emcees , nayven in charge of games . cheesan mingjie were in charge of .???erm i donno .. haha .. can't rmb . haha ..

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boring holiday .. haha .. already the 2nd week . but i am still rotting at home ..partly also because i lazy to go out ,cause of something .. haiz .. wasted my holiday .. i miss band life .. u don need to think wat u should do during the holiday ...cause band will always occupied ur holiday .. but now u have to think wat u should do ..sian


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althought this is ugly .. but i still like this photo la ..
i think really funny




[people say i should go for plactics surgery =[
haha ..maybe.. haha ]











there's something that make me feel very moody ..
i also donno wat can i do at all .... i have been thinking .. y izzit like that for months .. but is still like that .. i think this is the only thing i can do .. and i will just give it a try ..

alothough i am not very happy ..
but there's something that make me happy also .. haha ..
so continue to smile =]



i love bitch
i love leha
i love sharlyn
i love =D